I'm sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari, but that don't mean I can't get you there

Hi :)


My birthday tea with my family yesterday was lovely.  My bf's family also came.  Both families get on really well which is really nice.  My ex's family were kinda weirdos.  I got some lovely presents and also some money.  Even though it wasn't my actual birthday, I couldn't help but open my presents!  I will still have some to open on my actual birthday tomorrow though :) bf has kept his back, and I got one from my friend Steven tonight.  I will get presents from my friends late, as they are coming through to Edinburgh on the 15th for a late birthday lunch! :)


Bf stayed over with me at my parent's last night.  After the birthday tea we went for a walk together in the dark pouring rain (!) and then decided we would go for a sit-down Indian meal, yum yum.  At the end of the meal we were given a shot each.  I had Apple Sourz, bf had Cherry Sourz.  Weird to be given them randomly after an Indian meal but nice.


Today I gathered all my stuff together and my Nana & her husband gave me & bf a lift back to Edinburgh.  I needed a lift from Edinburgh with all the presents I had for other people before Christmas, and then it was the same on the way back with all the presents I had received!!  Bf hasn't been feeling too well so he just chilled out when we got back but I started to try and put away some of my presents and and stuff I bought myself in the sales.


Tonight me & my friend Steve went to the cinema to see The King's Speech starring Colin Firth!  I wasn't that interested in the film but Steven asked me last week to go.  He is really in to the royal family and so was really excited.  I don't really like them but do find them & their history kinda interesting.  Anyway the film was great!  Colin Firth is amazing in it, and so is the guy that plays his speech therapist, not sure of his name.  Steven picked me up and dropped me off home after it, and gave me my present!  Will be opening that tomorrow.


Well it looks like I will be having a nice birthday tomorrow :) bf has told me that he will be getting up to go and get us McDonald's breakfasts in the morning so I can eat it lying in bed, then we will be going to view a flat, then we will be going for a birthday lunch which I think I have decided will be at the Hard Rock Cafe, then we will be viewing another flat later, and then after that he will give me his own wee birthday tea :) can't wait! :) <3 xx

All I want for Christmas is you :)

Happy Christmas eve :) I right in to the festive spirit!  Me & bf watched Love Actually the other night, I've had all my Christmas nights out and now I'm home for Christmas :)


Today me & bf are going with my Nana & her husband and bf's sister to the cinema & for eats in Glasgow.  Then tonight, I am staying in with my mum, dad & brother and eating lots of little party snacks and watching dvds!  Then it's the big one tomorrow!  With about 14 family coming round for a big dinner :)


Ahhhhhh can't wait :) xx

I wait underneath the covers all night beside you

I'm in a bit of a better mood than the last time I wrote!  I am still dreading the pictures of the Christmas party going on Facebook but oh well!


Me & bf have decided we are moving :) we're staying in Edinburgh but want to get away from the flat we're in just now, our neighbours are just a nightmare.  The latest escapade, was last night.  Our very annoying upstairs neighbour, started playing his music really loud at the back of 5pm, and it went on til about half 7 when I went up and chapped his door.  I chapped it 2 or 3 times and he didn't answer, but I know he was in.  Over the next hour maybe, I had chapped his door about 6 times and buzzed his buzzer.  The last time I chapped his door (really hard) he was still not answering, but he turned the music off and started to creep about, making his footsteps quieter than usual.  Weirdo.  Anyway, after that I decided I wanted to move and bf agreed.  We looked at lots of flats today and we've got a viewing on Thursday.  I love the flat and it's location, but our noisy annoying neighbours are stopping us from enjoying it.  Quite excited about moving :)


My mum has got me this watch for Christmas :)

I can't wait to get it!  It took me forever to choose between the gold or silver but I eventually plumped for silver.  On the gold one, the characters were gold, which was lovely and really classy looking, but as you can see on the silver, the characters are rainbow coloured, and in the end I thought that was more "me".


I think I know what bf has got me for Christmas.  I wish I didn't, I don't like the surprise to be ruined.  I have only myself to blame!  I keep asking and asking but I don't really mean it.  Well I do at the time but deep down I don't really want to know.  Anyway, all signs point towards a trip to London, which is brilliant :) I will have to practice my surprised face for Christmas day!


I have a day & a half left of work before I finish til Christmas :) and I can't wait!  My Nana is coming to pick us up and take us home with all the presents on Thursday :)

Boo hoo

I feeling a bit sorry for myself :( stupid I know but I can't help it.


Yesterday was my work Christmas night out.  I had a great time during the day - me & my manager went out for our own wee Christmas lunch to Pizza Express (oh the glamour!) and had a few drinks and a great laugh.  After that we went down to the bar at work to watch Come Dine With Me.  Now, I know that might sound weird but CDWM was in Edinburgh this week, and one of the guys works in the building I work in, and a crowd went down to the bar to watch the final episode, which was also his night.  It was good fun.  Then we headed up the Royal Mile to a fancy little cocktail bar called Monteith's, which is really nice with lots of fairy lights.  My friend met us there, then we went to a dodgy bar which I hated!  We were only there for one though, and then headed to the hotel which our dinner was.  I was a bit tipsy by then and having a good time.  


Then it all started to go wrong.


Nothing really happened I just stopped having a good time and I wasn't having a laugh and kind of felt like I didn't fit in.  I moved to Edinburgh properly about a year ago and I feel it's been difficult to make proper friends here.  I have made a few I would say but not enough to make me happy :-/


I have my friend S who is a lovely guy but sometimes he's hard work.  He can be veeeeeeeeeeery quiet and I feel like I have to make all the conversation, and then if I stop doing that, he won't start and will just stay quiet and I feel awkward :( I also have my friend (another S) who moved from Glasgow to live with her bf and is one of my proper friends from home, but now when I meet her in Edinburgh I feel bored because all she does is moan about bf and all their troubles.  But, then I think "is the common denominator, me?"  I have to have some part in it, right?  So that makes me feel shit.


I miss my friends from home and how easy it is to be with them.  I told my bf about this last night and his suggestion was to arrange to meet my friends tomorrow in Glasgow for lunch which I have arranged.  I don't do this that much coz it costs to get here and back but I feel I need it.


The other thing is...... I seen pictures of me from last night and I look so fat in every picture :( shallow I know :(


I know this is (hopefully) just a phase I am going through like we all do from time to time xx

Jingle Bells!

Hey hey hey :) I'm so excited it's getting so close to Christmas :-D 


Not last weekend but the weekend before, I went to Glasgow from Friday til Sunday.  Friday was a quiet day at work, so I travelled in the morning from Edinburgh to our Glasgow office, and worked there for the day.  I took a loooooooong lunch, during which I met my friend for a munch and then left her and went shopping!  I have an obsession with nail polish, and as I had bare nails that day and didn't bring any through with me to Glasgow, felt that I Had to buy some.  Have you seen the new Accessorize make up?  Well I'm not sure about the rest of it but the nail polishes are lovely.  I bought 4 of them, and also a Barry M - Dusky Mauve and bottom/top coat.  I bought Accessorize Molten Copper-

Mermaid

Pink Spice

and.... Idol

I am absolutely loving them.  I'm loving Barry M's Dusky Mauve too but I'm sure you've already seen that.


I was going out on Friday night but unfortunately I had to stay in the office til 5pm.  The good thing about that though, was that mostly everyone left around 4pm, leaving me to sneakily paint my nails in the office while it was quiet! ;) I went out with my friends that night and had a great time.


On the Saturday, I started my Christmas shopping.  I got my mum & dad's from Molton Brown, and got bf's from Hugo Boss.  I then met my friends again for a couple of drinks but headed home after a couple with my heavy bags.  That night I started to feel ill, and by the time Sunday came round I was dying with the worst cold ever!  My Nana came to collect me and we went to my Aunt's birthday tea.  I was due to go n see Frankie Boyle with my friend that night but I gave it a miss as I felt so ill.  I got the train back to Edinburgh and my lovely friend Steven came and picked me up at the station and dropped me off at my flat :)


I was off work til Thursday and ended up going to the doctor where I was told the cold had brought my asthma back and so I now have an inhaler for the next wee while!


Me & bf took a half day on Friday there and went to Glasgow.  The weather was bad but we got through fine.  We had dinner at his parent's house and stayed over.  On Saturday I got my hair done, then me & bf went to the cinema & for dinner.  Stayed over at his parent's again on Saturday night then went home to Edinburgh on Sunday.  Lucky we left early coz after that the weather went mental!


And so now I am in the middle of another boring week at work!  It has been quiet due to the weather, which means I've had the chance to get right in to my Christmas shopping :) still got quite a bit to go though.  Can't wait to get it finished :) xx


PS.  I think I may have repeated myself in this post and the one before that, but hey! :) x

Uggggggggggggs

To the left I have a wish list, and on that wish list there was "Ugg boots".  But they're not there any more!  On Sunday I became the proud owner of a tall pair of chocolate brown Uggs.  It is love :)

They were an early Christmas present from my aunty :)

I know Uggs are not everyone's cup of tea but I love them and I've never had a real pair before.  As they are brown I am considering buying some brown tights & leggings.  I think it would be a good idea :)

They kinda look like the ones on the left below...

Oh and PS, Happy St Andrew's Day to my fellow Scottish lovelies :)

Let it snow!

Oh it's so beautiful outside, it won't stop snowing :) it's getting heavier & heavier as I type, I love it :)


Last week was a bit of a nightmare.  On Wednesday I had to be in the office for 07:30am...... uuuuuuuggggghhh!  I made it though!  Then I was in for a long, tough day at work.  Went to sleep about 11:30pm, and was woken at 12:30am but the people downstairs having a party :( then I was up til 5am because of them!  They didn't quieten down til we got the police out.  They are generally noisy & annoying but this was just taking the piss.  Bf went down to see them the next day and they said they were sorry, didn't realise they were so loud, blah blah blah.  I was away most of the weekend but last night one of them came to the door to say that they had people over (10 people) and that they were meant to leave yesterday morning, but because of the snow their flight back to Poland was cancelled and so they are here for another week.  I don't believe there ever was a flight they were meant to catch and I suspect that they all here looking for work.  I don't know about in other parts of the country, but in Edinburgh, when you have Polish people in a flat, there always seems to be about 10-12 of them in 1 or 2 bedroomed flats.  Well I hope they all get jobs and move out or go back to Poland soon coz they are doing my nut in.


So anyway I was in a terrible mood all of Thursday because of lack of sleep, and another tough day at work.


Friday was great.  I worked in Glasgow, I started late, met my friend for lunch, bought new nail varnish... managed to paint my nails in work when it got quiet, shhhhhhh!  After work I met my friends in the pub and had a nice night :) stayed in Glasgow all weekend.  On Saturday I had a lie in then spent some time with my mum & dad.  My mum has an amazing jewellery collection and managed to get her to part with some of for me ;) then I went Christmas shopping (Hugo Boss for bf and Molton Brown for mum & dad), and met my friends in the pub.  Only stayed out for 2 or 3 drinks.  They were having an all-dayer and I just wasn't in the mood.  Went home, had a nice bath and watched X Factor.  Yesterday I stayed in bed most of the day then went to my aunt Ann's for her birthday tea.


The only bad thing about the weekend was that I developed the cold from hell :( it started on Saturday night, and it was the reason I stayed in bed most of Sunday.  I was meant to be going to see Frankie Boyle last night in Glasgow with my friend, then getting the last train back to Edinburgh, but I felt too ill and so I cancelled.  I got the train back to Edinburgh and my lovely friend Steven came and picked me up at Waverley and dropped me off at my flat :) I am a 15/20 min walk from the station, but it was too dodgy to walk it and the taxi queue was massive, and also I was dying with the cold by that point so he was a total life saver.


Me & bf were meant to be going to the cinema & stuff today but I just don't feel up to it :( I feel bad coz bf was really looking forward to it :( I was too though.  We are meant to be off today but he has had to nip in to work for a while and I have asked him to come back with medicine & hankies for my cold!


Hope you are all enjoying the snow! :) xx

All I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen

I had a great time on Saturday.  My friend Steve came and picked me up and we drove off.  I was a tiny bit worried because Steven is lovely but he can be very quiet at times and it feels a bit awkward, but I needn't have worried!  He was great company on Saturday and we talked and laughed all day.  We drove to The Fort which is a big kind of outdoor shopping centre/retail park in Edinburgh, and went to a couple of shops there.  I was on a mission to get all 4 different shades of Nails Inc polish free with Glamour magazine and I was successful!  I got 3 of them in Superdrug & the last one in Boots :) we then nipped to Ikea where we walked round for a while and spent ages smelling all the candles.  We both came out with a bag full of them!  After that we took a short drive to a lovely little pub called The Stables which was a proper old fashioned pub with a coal fire and we had lunch there.  We drove back in to town after that and went round Sainsbury's, before he dropped me off home :)


After I got home me & bf went out to get Christmas decorations! :) we got everything we wanted.  We came home to watch X Factor but didn't have a great night because the guy upstairs decided to have a party with a million people at it and blast his music :( hate hate hate hate.


On Sunday I got up early and went to a Spin class.  I used to do them all the time when I was younger but gave them up years ago.  It was tough but I really enjoyed myself and I'm looking forward to going to my next one.  After that I met my friend Sam and we went for lunch, then viewed a couple of gyms in Edinburgh.  I think will be joining Factory Gym, but we are trying to get a discount on the joining fee before we do it! xx

I'm doing nothing... coz then at least I'm doing nothing wrong

Evening :)


Last night I ended up in work until half past 7pm, after starting at half 8am.  Shattered.  I was waiting on briefing coming in for the next day, today.


This morning I was at the hospital for my heart <3 all seems to be fine!  My heart scan was fine, heart is perfect.  I do have some irregular beats, which are called ectopic beats, but everyone can occasionally get them, it's just that I seem to be getting loads.  They don't do any harm.  I'm going back in February for a check up but I'm sure it'll be fine! :)


After the hospital I headed to Stirling for a conference.  I sat right up the back.  I didn't choose to go, I had to accompany the boss.  I was there for about 4 hours!  Boredom!!!  I played on my phone for a bit, but you can only do that for so long.  I tried to listen to the speeches, but they were too boring.  I nipped out a couple of times, pretending to go to the toilet, to go n read my magazine!  A guy in front of me's mobile rang, REALLY loud, TWICE!  It rang, so he ran out the room all embarrassed to take the call, came back in 2 mins later, and before he even sat down it rang again!!  You'd think after the first time he'd have learned his lesson and put it on silent!  I'm just glad it wasn't me.  Although mine did vibrate very loudly a few times before I realised it was mine!


After I got back to Edinburgh, I went in to the office for an hour, then headed home for a quiet night in with bf!


Tomorrow, me & my friend and going a drive to Ikea and some other shops, and for lunch. We also have to go on a mission to find Glamour magazines, as I hear they are giving away Nails Inc and so I will need to get every shade they're doing it in of course.  I kinda forgot about it, until bf mentioned it.  He said "I didn't know if you were in to that kinda stuff"  what, nail polish?  Our fridge is full of it.  It's going to be so difficult to get them all.  I take it he forgot when we were running round London this summer trying to get all the different free Benefit things with Glamour, or running round Manchester last year trying to get all the free Nails Inc stuff they did in November last year.  Oh well, fingers crossed we can find them all tomorrow.


Sunday, I am doing my first Spin class in years!  Then meeting another friend and going to see a couple of gyms, and for lunch.


Also buying Christmas decorations with bf somewhere in amongst all of the above :) xx

Oh baby baby you turn my dust to gold

Urrrgh had a rubbish day at work today after my lovely long weekend.  Hopefully tomorrow will be better, once I have settled in again.  It was a pretty hectic day.


Had an amazing day yesterday.  This might sound boring to some people but me & bf stayed in all day and ate and watched films.  Well we almost stayed in all day.  Bf had to make an emergency run to the shop in the morning for toilet roll!  Ha ha!  But while he was out he got us McDonald's breakfasts :) we watched about 6 films and had a great time, and he made a lovely dinner :) awwwwww he's so sweet! :-D


This is my last week on the pill!  I'm a bit nervous coz my bf isn't great with condoms but we'll have to live with it until my body decides to sort itself out.  I've got the hospital on Friday as well about my heart.  I must say I'm kind of excited to go to the hospital and see what they've got to say about my heart.  I'm 99.9% sure that it's not serious so I'm just interested to see what it is that's wrong.  It says I'm going to see the medicine department this time so they must be wanting me to take something.  I'm just finding it really interesting.  I think if it was serious then they would of had me back sooner.


We had to go a wee walk to the supermarket and we passed lots of Christmas decorations so we decided to go and buy some at the weekend :) it's our first Christmas in our flat together and I'm so excited :) we won't be spending Christmas Day here together but I can't wait to get our decorations and make it look all Christmassy together :) xx